More on the Ride

                             

    I got all my pictures downloaded on my other site. http://journals.aol.com/midwestvintage/BikeRideAroundSiouxCity/

   Looking at my pictures lets me know I still have sooooooo far to go in my weight loss effort.  I wish I had taken more pictures of me 50 pounds ago because I don't remember what I looked like.  I feel like I have made no progress.  Anyway, enough of my pictures of me depression.

   I am feeling pretty darn good today.  I was afraid I would be in terrible shape today but I'm not.  Not sore or anything.  The bad thing is I didn't sleep well again.  I seem to sleep soundly for around 4 hours and then only in fits the rest of the night.  I have tried tylenol PM. but it didn't work for me.  I called my doctor and got a Ambien script.  I will probably only use it occasionally but when you work nights it is so important to sleep.

   I am going to call WW today and find out what the cheapest program is.  One of the ladies at work only pays 10 a month.  I want that.  I need some structure.  Why isn't exercise enough.  I eat well.  Nutritious.  3 meals.  Sigh.

   I am not working tonight.  I am so tired I decided to call in and see if I can get a good night sleep for a change with the med.  I only had 4 hours the night before and 5 hours last night.  If I can just sleep at least 8 hours I hopefully can change this pattern.  My son says its the extra exercise that has my body revved up.  He may be right.  I never used to have this much trouble sleeping.

   I just got back from reading Linda's entry at http://journals.aol.com/linnpooh/LindasThotfulSpot/

   It just hit home.  Here I was feeling sorry and depressed at how I look in my pictures and feeling like whats the use.  I never am going to get skinny or look good in pictures.  That is why there are so few pictures of me.  Then I read Linda's post and knew I had to remain positive.  It was a huge thing to me what I did yesterday.  Last year I could not have done that and would not have even wanted to.  I hated exercise in any shape or form.  I was too self-conscious to be seen on my bike as I felt like a ball on a bike.  I have come a long way.  I have not lost as much weight as I wanted to but hey, I have time.  It will happen.  My health is so much better.  I started slowly and kept increasing what I do and look at me now.  My son can easily do 40 miles on his bike, but he is a twig and 27 years younger then me.  I have come a long way.  Thanks Linda for making me mentally kick myself in the butt for feeling sorry for myself.