Much better

                    

    I used to meditate twice a day.  It helped keep me centered and on track with my dieting.  Kept my blood pressure low and helped me tolerate being in chronic pain.  For some reason I haven't done it for quite awhile.  I can tell.  My blood pressure is up again, obviously pretty grumpy at times, SORRY, and my pain tolerance has decreased.  So after my grumpy ole post this morning I decided I needed to get centered again.  I did my entire 30 minute meditation working on getting my breathing relaxed and working the kinks out of my body.  Getting centered.  And I feel better.  I will not let up on it again.   I will still be taxed to death, it will still anger me, but I won't let it affect my health.

   So after meditating and feeling so much better we did chores.  As usual I left most of them for today.  Terrible me I didn't do my homework either yesterday.  It seemed more important to enjoy the weather, :^)  So I mailed a package and visited my MIL.  She is still doing poorly.  The meds they put her on made her so sick she isn't eating well.  If we don't bring her meals I am afraid she wouldn't eat at all.  She is so weak.  I told her again to take her boost drinks 3 times a day.  It was like I had never told her that before.  She started her laundry but couldn't finish it.  So I finished her laundry and once again I talked to her about getting an apartment where everything is one on floor or moving in with us.  Then she has a million excuses and says "Oh its not to that point yet"!  Oh Yah?

                         

                   

   They started her on a new medication for her stomach pain she is suppose to take once a day.  She hadn't taken it.  When I asked her why she said she couldn't read the instructions clearly.  Did it say to take one a day or once a day!  For Pete's sake Mom....it means the same thing!  So back home to meditate again.  Ommmmmmmm.   I will be calm, I will be calm.....I will be calm.

                     

   Its beautiful out today and I just saw hundreds of geese flying overhead.  Makes my heart soar.  I saw a plant peaking its head out of the ground.  A bright burst of green.  Looking out my side window I no longer see snow.  My tylenol kicked in, my mediation kicked in, and I am feeling better.  So work should go well.  Hopefully my neck will settle down. 

                

 

    I get down sometimes because it is always one thing after another.  I get maybe a couple of days of feeling good and then something else rears its ugly head.  But it could be worse.  Reading everyone's journals with all the cancer and sadness it could definitely be worse.  I am blessed to do as good as I do.  Some days I amaze myself and my doc just shakes her head.  She told me to go part time 12 years ago and can't believe how I just keep on ticking.  Well you know what.   Life's too short to spend in bed.