I was feeling so punk yesterday I forgot to celebrate my 2 year anniversary.
2 years ago I had a doctor inches from my face telling me I had to quit smoking now. I had had what they thought was a stroke. I was 50. I didn't quit that day, but the next morning I did. Sept. 1, 2004 at 8 in the morning I smoked my last cigarette and quit cold turkey. Neither my husband or me really thought I would quit. I was scared but could I really do it? Well I did. I gained a ton of weight but I did it.
What else did I gain? Well I can breath now, good.....I just did a 90 mile bike ride, good.....I can go hiking again......really good.......my clothes don't stink......also very good........my husband says my mouth no longer tastes like an ashtray......also very good.
So I am patting myself on the back. I did it. I DID IT.
Pam asked me how long I had smoked and what did I get out it. My doctor told me I had a 45 year smoking history. I don't know how they come up with that since I would have had to start smoking when I was 7 but it has something to do with how many you smoked also.
I became a serious smoker around 16. I had smoke casually with friends before that, but I took to smoking like a duck to water. I liked how it calmed me down, gave me something to do besides eat, how I thought it make me look older and sexy when I was young, and how it made me take breaks which I rarely do now. When I started the worse thing they said could happen was I would be short. So what. I smoked through both my pregnancies and they even rolled me bed and all out in the hall for a smoke when my first labor lasted 3 days. Fortunately neither of my children smoke.
I would leave a movie to smoke, I would be lighting my cigarette as I left the door of work. Once I started to walk to the store in 14 inches of snow because I was out of smokes. They ruled my life. At one time I smoked 2 to 3 packs a day.
Now we know what I always suspected. The cigarette companies add things to the tobacco to make it addicting. Recently they admitted to increasing the nicotine also to make it more addictive. I really think it should be made illegal. I would have not smoked if it had been.
I do not go on a rant and rave with my smoker friends. They will all quit when it is their time. I hope I didn't wait too long to quit, but I might have. My lungs may have lasting damage. But I have quit. For now and forever.