Good Book

  I was up half the night, from 2:30 until 6 am reading a new book I got from the library. It is called Passing for Thin Losing Half My Weight and Finding My Self"  by Frances Kuffel and is about her losing over 110 pounds and the changes she undergoes.  It is a really must read book for anyone one a journey like mine to lose a large amount of weight.  Although I don't quite relate to her early years eating habits and sneak eating, so much of it hits home.  It is great the way she changes from an angry lonely woman with a poor self-image to a lovely happy self-assured woman.

   My husband figured out they took just slightly over 2 pounds off my chest which accounts for my 2 pound weight loss which means I have to get serious here.  I had added some more things to my diet since I was working out but now that I am on hold with that I need to cut those out.  That means in 2 weeks I really haven't lost anything that wasn't surgically removed.  Sigh.  I think the woman in the book went to over eaters Anonymous meetings and that is what helped her so much.  Maybe I should check the one out here in town and see if it is as good as the one in New York she went to.

   Breakfast today was shredded wheat.  I am stuck in a rut.  I might just have a tasty salad for supper and we are having crock-pot chicken and veggies.

  I have decided to take this week off from the gym.  I do not want to compromise my surgery or my recovery.  It is a killer though and I almost changed my mind as my husband took off for the gym.  I see the doctor next Tuesday and will then start going back if she says everything is OK.  I am not having as much discomfort today.

   OK we ended up having fish for supper with brown and wild rice and then I steamed a head of cauliflower.  I baked the fish because although it was 60 degrees out the winds were 40 MPH and it would have made grilling difficult.

  Went shopping today.  I wanted to get a top that would be flattering for my new chest but really hated the selection and I can't wait until I get out of plus sizes.  I ended up getting a heavenly pair of slacks that I have no idea what size they are because they weren't marked.  They were not in the plus sizes though and I got 2 workout pants also not in the plus sizes.  I can get by with large or x large.  I wish I knew what size the pants were.  The last ones I bought were an 18 and they are somewhat baggy on me.  I hate my body shape.  My stomach is horrible and still clinging to all the weight.  I don't think I have lost an ounce there.  My legs are getting thin, I can cross my legs and they don't do that awful rubbing together when I walk.  My arms, although flabby underneath, are smaller and my face is smaller.  Oh and I bought some shoes and have gone down a size in shoe!  Neat.  My stomach though won't budge.  If I win the lottery I will be making an appointment to get a tummy tuck right away.  Since that won't happen I will just have to plug away and try and work it off at the gym.  Sigh.