I am excited and nervous about starting this in the morning. Excited because I hope it starts my weight going down again, nervous because it is a DIET which I said I would never do again. However, I am up 2 pounds! I said I would never gain any of this weight back either. I need to get back into the mode and thinking. I think staying home has been bad for me. It is so easy to slip back into bad habits. Also I am depressed because my incisions, which look better this morning, aren't healed. I wonder how soon I can go back to work. I still am not doing the type if lifting that will be required when I go back. How will that be? Still it is improved and I can stand to wear a bra again so that is good.
I have been making a menu for the next few days. I do better with a plan. My husband is still complaining about it but he will live. It would be so much easier if I only had to cook for myself. I showed him again all the things that are allowed on phase 1 and just because I won't be eating any potato's or bread or fruit doesn't mean he can't.
For supper tonight I am making ravioli tonight since I have leftover spagetti sauce from supper last night. It was yummy. I am getting my pasta fix in since I won't be having any for awhile. I have a pasta maker and think I will start making wheat pasta for when I get to phase 2 or is it 3. I have one apple left which I am going to have for my snack today and I am going to have popcorn tonight as I can't have that either for awhile. I will miss my dry popcorn. Also if things still look good tomorrow I am going to the gym. Thats my plan. Can I stick to it? Why after 9 months am I faultering. Depression because I have only lost 45, whoops now 43 pounds. I thought it would fall off faster and if I am honest it would have if I had stayed exactly on my plan.
Frankly I could really care less and have never watched a football game on TV but my son loves the steelers and lives there so I am happy he is so happy. He called and it sounded like the whole city was going nuts with joy.