The first day of my long stretch off....always a occasion for celebration, LOL. Came home and checked on the baby eagles. Already they are bigger and more active. Mom, or Dad, I can't tell the adults apart, was feeding them fish. For the first time the wind has died down, looks like a beautiful day there.
Work was very busy. I seem to be having trouble controlling my temper lately. Believe I am not much of one to have a temper. The smallest things are driving me nuts. Lights not getting answered fast enough, I always have hated that, but now it is really making me angry. The.. it's not my patient attitude, is making me grit my teeth. Since I worked on oncology for years I realize I am projecting my anger about my MIL on of all people the nurses. I have had that anger projected at me in the past. I realize I am doing it, but seem powerless at this point to stop. At least I am not breaking out in tears which would be much worse, LOL. Everyone is tiptoing around me. Julie the Bear. Fortunately my patients only see the professional me. But watch out co-workers.
Today we are going to my MIL lawyer as it turns out she doesn't quite have all her affairs in order. Then I am going to fix her something to eat and I hope to take a bike ride this afternoon. It is suppose to be nice. Sunday if everything is OK I am going to an auction. They look like they will have some pretty neat things. I love auctions.
My diet has been going well. I have been sticking to around 1300 calories which combined with how busy we have been at work should help. For some reason it is easier now. Maybe because the weather is finally warming up and things are blooming. Salad time and bike riding. I have also been getting my water in.
I talked to my boss about how I plan on handling my MIL illness and missing work. I will take a leave of absence when the time gets nearer. I told her if it came to my MIL or my job my MIL would win. She wishesthe hospital would have a more flexible policy. The trouble is people would abuse it. I worked management for 10 years in nursing service. I know they would. A few bad eggs have ruined it for us all.
Well, time to sleep as I have to get up at noon. Bye all.
Sand and Stone
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT.
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE
IN THE FACE.
THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING,
WROTE IN THE SAND:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.
THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED
TO TAKE A BATH
THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.
AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE W ROTE ON A STONE:
"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE ".
THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, "A FTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"
THE FRIEND REPLIED
"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.
BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND
CAN EVER ERASE IT."
LEARN TO WRITE
YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO
CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.
6 comments:
I hope you can get your MIL's business taken care of today. I have been keeping an eye on the eagles but haven't checked this morning. Hope you get your bike ride in this evening. Enjoy your weekend off as much as possible. Helen
Leave policies for caregiving (or lack thereof) forced me into self employment years ago. This is and will become a growing factor for so many. It seems corporate America chooses to keep it's head stuck in the sand.
Patrick
Your anger is understandable your under a lot of stress lately. Sometimes it's impossible to to rein the anger in when we need to vent and let it go somewhere. Your co-workers know of your situation they will understand and hopefully keep on top of things in work. I loved the poem at the end of this post hon!! Wise words indeed. Keeping everyone in my prayers on the smoke! (Hugs) Indigo
you can't use the federal leave thing? just wondering
Deb
I have a feeling your job will be intact.... you are a great nurse and a wonderful person. Even if this job went away, you'd have an even better one within the week.
~Meg
Julie,
Don't be so hard on yourself.....your anger is very understandable given what you are dealing with. I have a feeling though then it seems worse to you than it really is.....that's because you are such a caring person. I'm praying for MIL....bless her heart. Enjoy your auction.
Pooh Hugs,
Linda
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