Thursday, September 20, 2007

Well, the day is almost upon us

       Rick's ablation is tomorrow.  We started the whole procedure way back in Nov. of last year and the day is almost here.  Rick has slept terrible, his nerves are on edge.  He is so nervous I am nervous.  I know he is in good hands and I know he will be fine but his dread is infectious.  I can't wait until tomorrow is over.

      I was petting Zoey and found 2 more lumps.  Sheesh, I swear they hadn't been there the day before.  These 2 new ones feel like cysts though but I sure wish she would stop getting them.  Plus she keeps licking her incisions on her legs and they are getting red looking.  I spend all day telling her to stop it.  I am not looking forward to taking her to the vet todays.  She justs hates it and being left is going to really depress her.  Last time sweety.

      I got last night off for low census.  What a blessing.  I won't be so tired today when we go to Omaha and my back didn't get another workout.

     I had to go back on FMLA for my back.  It has been acting up so much again lately I wanted to make sure my job was safe.  I have only missed one day because of my back, but with more disc's bulging I want to protect my job.  I am going to have to get another MRI soon to see how bad it has became.  I just am not sure I want to know.  Ya know!

      The weather is just wonderful outside.  Should be a beautiful day for traveling.  I am not sure when we will be leaving.  Rick is talking morbid about how he didn't make a will and he should have canceled until after his mother was gone so she wouldn't have to go through the loss of her son in her final days, did  I mention he was nervous and morbid!  I have had so many surgeries I guess I just have learned to put my trust in the doctors.  This is the first thing Rick has ever had done.  I told him if he died in surgery I would kill him so he had just better behave and start putting out some good vibes.

     MIL is doing OK.  She is home of course having refused Respite care.  I am just not going to think about for the next couple of days.  Stubborn woman and I know hospice is going to check on her more.   Rick has been spending the days there.

     Well, I guess I had better get busy.  Notice the day just seems to fly when you have lots to do and you don't seem to have enough time to get it all done.  Thanks to everyone for all your well wishes.  I am holding your prayers close to my heart for warmth and comfort so I can block out Rick's fears.

        I love the picture of the bird I took last year.  He looks like he hasn't a care in world which I didn't have either when I took it.  I was on my bike, the day was beautiful, and life was good.  I find this picture represents that for me and I am looking forward to perfect days like that to come. 

       Last night we watched the movies Long Way Round about 2 motorcyclist who drove around the world.   The one thing they kept saying which those of us who journal know.  The world around people all want the same things.  A roof over our heads, food to feed our children and warmth at night.  Everyone was so friendly on their trips.  If we got rid of all the politicians telling us all to hate each other, would we all get along world wide,.........probably.  Heres a wave and a hello for all the world.  I love you all.



madcobug said...

I will be in prayer for both of you. I pray that Rick and you both will have the calmness of assurance that he is going to come through the surgery ok and that he will heal quickly and that your back will see a big improvement. Hugs, Helen

kirkbyj05 said...

I know what you mean when you say Rick is worrying.  Men just aren't used to pain and surgery like we women.  Bryan worried about having his teeth out weeks in advance and went off into the midde distance in his minds eye where he worried up a storm for himself.  What are they like?   Its the unknown.  Plus I remember Bryan saying to me when he was in hospital for the first time..'I'm sitting in the wrong place.  You should be in this bed and I should be on the chair.'  Hospitals don't suit them.  They are used to being strong and acting brave..Bless them.   (When its really we women that are brave and strong for the family.)

I will pray up a storm for all of you for tomorrow.  Zoey and Betty too.
Once this is over and done with no more attacks and lots of carefree bike riding is looming in the sunny future for you both.  Now that's something to look forward to...yes?
All the very best.
Jeanie xxx

radar446 said...

Poor Zoey, she is having such a rough time with these lumps and bumps.  I am so sad for her.


nightmaremom said...

sending you good thoughts....

jckfrstross said...

praying for good operation tomorrow:)


jlocorriere05 said...

Good vibes being sent for Rick today Julie! Bless him, I think all men worry when they haven't got control over a situation but I'm sure he'll be well looked after in hospital. I hope Zoey's trip to the vets wasn't too stressful for her. The photo of the bird is beautiful! Jeannette xx  

fisherkristina said...

I am praying for everybody.


cacklinrosie101 said...

Julie, I'm sending prayers for peace of mind for Rick and also for you.  Men do seem to get a lot more upset than women about any sort of procedure.  Poor Zoey.  I hope she doesn't miss you too much.  I know those cysts have to bother you.  Just block everything out of your mind for a day or two.  Chris

lanurseprn said...

I'm catching up here. I am hoping all went well for you and Rick yesterday. I don't blame him for being nervous. I would be, too!

Sorry your back is bothering you. I had bulging disc's and had to be off work for a long time. Now they are resolved....but I still have issues with the IS joint. Painful!
Let us know how Rick is  doing, ok?