Saturday, December 31, 2005

Need to make some changes

                                          

 I am at the point where I really need to watch myself.  I have been doing good and feel like an occasional cheat won't hurt, but it truth it will because it will lead to more and more cheats.   I have found myself skipping breakfast or lunch occasionally again.  That makes me want to eat more at supper which is a big problem for me.  Portion control.  I also think that since I am working out so much I can reward myself with eating alittle more.  Oh the tricks your mind plays.  In truth I can't do any of those things now or ever.  I found out the hard way once when I quit smoking after 8 years I decided I could have a cigarette when I was out with my sister one time.  One cigarette quickly became a pack which resulting in my smoking another 10 years until I quit again last year.  It is so easy to slip and go back into bad habits.  I am not hungry for breakfast usually and it is easy for me to just not eat it.  That is what for me is so great about the slim fast.  I can usually force myself to drink one of those.  I believe it is really important not to miss any meals.  I also stopped journaling my food daily.  I need to start doing that again.  I feel myself slipping into bad habits.  Successful losers see that happening and stop it immediately.  I want to be successful.  I found a pretty good site with some good information.  http://www.power-surge.com/educate/diet_weight.htm  Most of that if not all of that I know but reminding myself is good.

  Breakfast this morning was a slim fast shake.  I slept so terrible last night because my back hurt.  I can only take tylenol until after my surgery and it did not do the trick.  Work will be awful tonight on 5 hours of sleep and by this time tomorrow I will be up for 26 hours unless I can take a nap this afternoon.  No gym today.  My back is just too out of wack.  I think I will do a hot bath in scented bath beads and try to go back to bed.  It sounds like my MIL wants us to eat at her house today.  I will have to make sure I eat a good lunch, snack, and lots of water so I can handle what ever she prepares.

  My sweet dog Zoey. Lazy like me today.

3 comments:

bljon1965 said...

Don't beat yourself up too badly.  You are still in the right mindset and doing a good job.  Plan yourself a day to cheat down the road.  Say, in 30 days and that gives you something to look forward to.  Hang in there...I'm proud of you! - Lisa

tfritschle said...

HANG IN THERE JULIE.....YOU CAN DO IT!!!  I AM A 33 YEAR OLD WOMAN AND HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR 15 YEARS WITH TWO YOUNG DAUGHTERS.  I TOO WAS 100 LBS. OVER WEIGHT AT ONE TIME.  I HOPE THAT YOUR HUSBAND SUPPORTS AS MINE DID ME.  I LOST 96 OF MY 100 LBS BEFORE I HAD MY DAUGHTERS.  IT WAS TRUE...ALL ALONG I WAS EATING THE WRONG FOODS.  ONCE I HAD STARTED EATING RIGHT AND WALKING EVERY DAY THE POUNDS JUST FELL OFF.  SINCE THEN I HAD A MAJOR BACK SURGERY AND THE DAY AFTER MY SURGERY I HAD GAINED 9 LBS. BACK.  THEN,  2 YEARS LATER MY THYROID WENT OUT WHICH HAS ALL TOGETHER MADE ME GAIN ANOTHER 20 LBS.  IT IS VERY FRUSTRAITING BUT I KNOW THAT I WILL GET IT OFF SOON.  MY MSG. TO YOU IS DONT GIVE UP!!!  I WILL KEEP UP WITH YOUR PROGRESS AND I WISH YOU THE BEST OF LUCK AND HEALTH.  (I KNOW HOW THE BAD BACK CAN PUT YOU BACK IN BED) THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR STORY WITH THE PUBLIC AS YOU ARE AN INSPERATION TO OTHERS AS WELL.  TAKE CARE JULIE

midwestvintage said...

 Thank you both for your support.  I am having all these doubts lately because I think I should see more change in the mirror.  I should have taken better before pictures.  I am losing so slowly it doesn't jump out at me.  I weighed in 2 pounds heavier today. Yikes.  I don't count that until Wed. weigh in so I will have that gone by then but I need to go back to doing it how it works best for me and I have been slipping at that.  Thanks for reminding me it can be done and I can do it.