This is the 2nd time I am typing this as I forgot to save it. Bummer.
I did water aerobics this morning for one hour. I will go back this afternoon and work on the weight ciruit and treadmill. I was trying to get a good picture of me in my old pants that I can't wear anymore because even with elastic waist they are too large, but photobucket is down. I am so dissapointed in my stomach. I can see the weight loss in my arms, legs and my round swedish face somewhat, but very little in my stomach. I have had so many surgeries I wonder if it will every shrink. I should have taken better before pictures so I could really remind myself of how much I have lost. I am already forgetting what I looked like 37 pounds ago. I can walk around and feel so good and lighter and then I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and get a rude reminder of how far I have to go yet. I have been doing some visualization of how I will look when I am slim and healthy when I meditate. Maybe I should concentrate on feeling better about myself here and now. I am a kind person. People are alive today because I chose the profession I do. I am never mean or rude to anybody and am a very accepting person to everyone but myself. I need to work on that and had thought I was getting better but as I was taking the pictures of me in those pants I realized I still need to work on that. I am worthy of committing so much time to myself. I am worth it.
For breakfast today just slim fast due to swim. Lunch was my favorite spinach and salmon salad. I am making that blackened chicken for supper. Later tonight I am going out to listen to some live jazz and maybe have some nice wine. When Rick gets home I also am going to go to Fashion Bug and see about a nice new outfit. I have no idea what size pants I wear now and am tired of my clown cloths. I also am expecting to hear about whether or not I go approved for surgery soon. I would be thrilled if I can get the reduction. My breasts have not shrunk even a little. My husband had some biopsies done Monday and I think we will hear on them today also.