Saturday, June 2, 2007
R& R day
A busy day today. First I had to go and get some glassware I am listing for that old couple. It is sad going through other peoples closets. What things they discard, special things given to them by friends. Things that should be special left behind. Why do I save anything. How must my son's feel looking at the things I save and wondering how they will get rid of it all when the time comes. Then I think, Who cares, I enjoy it now and I don't care what happens to it when I am dead and gone. So that is how I think.
We had a fun day today. We went to one of our favorite places to eat. They have a gaming machine there to play. Each ticket is worth $1.00. I won over 80 so dinner and wine was free! Now that was fun. I spent $5.00 in the machine and our dinner was over $60.00. Only cost me $5.00 for tips and the rest I won. So we splurged and had fun.
My MIL is so funny. I told her I was surprised she was so loose and funny since she was dying. She said she so far didn't think it was so bad and if she had known it wasn't going to be that bad she would have done it a long time ago. LOL. She really likes the liquid morphine she is getting except for the taste. I am surprised this woman who has always been so afraid of dying is taking it this way. Makes my fear go away. I always thought it was just part of the process of living. Since I believe there is going to be something fun on the other side and that I will get to see people I miss, I have never feared it either. I can't wait to see my Mom. I have some things to tell her and some hugs I have missed giving her.
Lately with all the death an dying going on I am having the worse time trying to lose weight. Seems so pointless. I like being healthy and riding my bike all over and really don't care how much I weigh as long as I am healthy and feeling good. That attitude is bad for my diet but good for my soul. Live each day as if tomorrow won't come. Enjoy each fresh breeze on your face. The rain on your hair. Your loved ones calloused hands on your flesh. For each day your breathing and each day your feeling alive is a good day.
Take care all.
Posted by Julie at 5:44 PM