Sunday, October 14, 2007

One more day.

  Can you tell I am doing the countdown, LOL.      I was charge for 8 hours last and actually got out on time.  One more night to work.



         Work was not bad last night.  I see improvement in my patients,  loved the people I worked with and my back had cut it down a notch.  So nice.  I was able to doing some therapeutic laughing and one girl gave a great back massage when the pain got hard to handle.  I work with some wonderful people.

          We made supper at MIL's.   It was too spicy she thought, too bland we thought so we were not exactly satisfied with dinner.  It is hard to cook for someone who usually only cooked with salt and pepper.  We like to use different spices and herbs when we cook.  How much macaroni and cheese can you eat in a lifetime. 

    At times she seems less confused.  We had a pleasant meal and she seemed with it,.  even smiled,  Not happy about the LPN I hired.  I can stay by myself she says.  No Mom, you can't anymore.  You will be sleeping the entire time she is here anyway.  Do it for my our peace of mind.   BIL left me alone for hours without problems.  Well mom, that a problem of a different nature and I don't intent to neglect you that way thank you very much..  She is starting to have some GI bleeding.   And states she just doesn't want to get out of bed much anymore.  I told her to lay in bed as much as she wanted.

     I felt so quilty going to work the day she was confused.  I am used to a confused patient.  I know who to redirect them and get them to calm down.  I am used to dying people.  I know the signs that it is getting near.   Rick is scared to death.  He has only seen his dad die.  It wasn't alone with his dad when he died.  All the family was there.  I feel bad I am not there all the time to reassure him he will be OK and help him through this.  Things are looking close enough I am thinking this might be the last night I work unless the LPN works out good enough.   Mentally my MIL is getting ready to let get.  I can hear it in the things she says.  She tired, she has had enough, she wants to just stay in bed.  She wishes she would just not wake up.  This is fairly new also.   I think she will get her wishes soon.  We have a hospice meeting in the morning.

    Thanks to everyone for your prayers and kind emails.  It helps.

     Now some good news.  Zoey is like she has been snatched from the jaws of death and is determined to live each day like it is her last.  This has taken like 3 years off her.  She is playing with toys she hasn't touched in ages and wanted to rough house like a puppy.   It is wonderful and the vet was so pleased when he called.
 
    So that is all folks.  Take care.


           

7 comments:

madcobug said...

I am sorry that your MIL is going downhill like this. I can understand why she doesn't feel like getting up anymore. That is great news about Zoey. I am glad for her and you all. Helen

jlocorriere05 said...

It must be so hard for Rick watching his mother like this. When my mum was dying of cancer I couldn't help but look back on when she was younger and full of life, it's hard to adjust to how they are now. I'm glad your back was easing a little and I'm so happy Zoey has got a new lease of life! That's great new after hearing how she was, then that bout of weird behaviour! Lol! Have a good week. Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels  

springangel235 said...

So sorry about your MIL...the up's and down's have to be rough on all.  Zoey is amazing...such a fighter...so happy for all of you concerning her health.  Prayers for  your MIL...hugs and love,
Joyce

xxroxymamaxx said...

Hi julie.  I am not getting your alerts again. grrrrr.... I'm getting frustrated with alerts.  I'm sorry to hear about your MIL.  Praying for you all.  glad to hear Zoey is doing well. : )  love, Shelly

jimsulliv3 said...

Good to hear Zoey's doing well. My Mom had dementia, so I know what you're going through, Just remember that although you feel guilty when you have to leave, thirty minutes later, they won't even remember it. That's the good thing about that disease. It's relatively easy for the patients because they just become children. It's the hardest for the children of these patients who have to cope with it. Hang in there !

Jimmy

kirkbyj05 said...

Excellent news about your back and Zoey's health too.  You have a 'puppy' now..Lol!  She will cheer you up when you get home from work.  And listen when you need to unwind too.  Bless!
It doesn't sound long for Betty now.  Tiredeness you can cope with, if that's all she is complaining about.  Not pain!  That will be a blessing for Rick as he watches and looks after her.
My father-in-law kept wakening up from his terminal illness and always loooked out the window first.  He would then say' Oh dear...oh! dear!' Meaning another day on earth.  They seem to get too weary as the end draws nearer.
God Bless All of you.

Hugs
Jeanie  xxx

lanurseprn said...

I'm so glad Zoey is well! What a good recovery she's made! Wow!
Sorry about your MIL. It's a rough time for you all.
Pam