Friday, November 16, 2007
Questions I can't answer
My MIL is at that stage where she wants some answers and reassurance. Answers I can't answer and reassurance I am not qualified to give. Is there life after death? Is there pain at death? When do you know it is time? How the heck do I know I want to scream, but that will not give her peace. But what do I know.......
I have seen many people die. My job makes that experience something I have to see fairly often. I have seen people die from a trauma, from a acute illness like failed kidneys, bad heart and often suddenly without warning. Babies to the very old. Do I have any answers? No. I do not. But!
I have seen twins reach out to take the hand of the deceased twin sister that reached for theirs during their last moment. I have seen husbands and wife's whisper their spouses name and smile. I have seen terror and fear replaced with understanding and peace. And I have seen smiles at the moment most people spend their life running from.
I used to go to church 3 times a week. I go seldom now. Not that I don't believe....contrary. I believe sometimes more I think then those that teach . There is something.....not to be feared. And I tell my MIL that. I don't have the answers. I just have that deep believe. It will be right. It will be peaceful. It does come to us all and it isn't anything to be feared.
So I wonder. What do you all think? Just curious.
Posted by Julie at 7:05 PM