Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Good Morning J-land. Hope the world finds you all hale and well.
Its a cool crisp day in Iowa. Most of the leaves are off the trees and the air has that spicy dead leaves smell which I love. My morning walk in the woods with Zoey is so nice. Today she isn't feeling the best. I am afraid her pancreatitis is becoming chronic. We both slept until 10:15 am, wow and then I found out she had gotten sick in the night. Fortunately not on the carpet. I gave her some popcorn last night and it must have been too much for her. No more people snacks.
We didn't go out last night. My MIL decided she didn't want the LPN coming after she had had company all weekend. We had it planned for her to come after my MIL usually goes to bed and I don't know why us watching her sleep would be any different then the LPN, but anyway we canceled.
It is important as caregivers to get some time for yourself. You will build up some resentment no matter how much you love the person at the disruption of your life. Especially if it goes on for a long time. Then you feel guilty because you feel this resentment because for it to end means your family member is no longer alive. I know this because I worked 10 years in Oncology. Its a normal feeling. That is why I know it important to have these days off. So I have to have a talk with my MIL and see what was behind her refusal. Did she feel especially sick last night? Or as can be with myMIL was it just her being ornery because she can be that at times also. I know the relatives spent a lot of time discussing my BIL & swapping horror stories in the kitchen and even with her poor hearing maybe she heard and is mad at us all. I spent a lot of time this weekend shushing everyone. Sigh. Whatever the reason I was disappointed but we will try again for Friday.
I watched a movie here with Zoey and had popcorn. Since we are down to one car I couldn't go over there and I just stayed here and relaxed. We watched The White Countess. It was pretty good. I didn't go to bed until 2 am so I am very happy I slept in. Now I am doing my laundry and cleaning house. Then I will go to my MIL's and work today. 2 more nights of work. It goes fast. Soon my long week off. Soon.
Take care all.
Posted by Julie at 9:30 AM