I am so full of sorrow today. If you think nurses don't care then you don't know people. Some hide it better. Some can not show it until they are alone. Some choose not to share. But we hurt. I am hurting sooooo bad tonight. Broken and wondering why I keep doing this to myself. Why did I choose to put myself into this position. I could have been anything. Done anything. Painless things.
I feel emotions are a good thing. I believe in feeling your entire emotions.....but sometimes, tonight, maybe I am wrong. Maybe not feeling this would be nice. Nice. I probably won't post this. I did post it on my other journal. Will I ruin someones night. Make them sad. Invite them to join me? In my sorrow.