Work

                     

     I am bushed.   Work has been.....well work!  Yesterday I got pulled to the surgical floor for 12 hours.  Oh the pain meds I gave all night.  We don't give that many pain meds on our floor, just drips.  Give me heart drips any day.   My back was just screaming.  Tonight we were having blue light specials on flash pulmonary edema.  Back and forth to the ICU pushing loaded beds, what fun and I was charge at 11.  Every light was on and we were getting transfers at the same time we were sending them to ICU.   Never a boring moment and the 12 hours just flew by.  I feel every second of my age today.  I am so ready for bed.

    Hope everyone is having a great weekend.  We have rain and storms knocking off all of our beautiful fall foliage.  And I didn't get any pictures.  Hospice thinks it may be time for me to take my Leave of absence so I am talking to my boss in the morning.  Hope it goes well.

    Well....night all.
                 

I wish you enough

                         

                  I Wish You Enough!

     
    Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments  together at the airport. They had announced the departure.

    Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and I wish you enough".

    The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough.  Your love is all I ever needed.  I wish you enough, too, Mom".
   
    They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking,  "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?".

    Yes, I have," I replied. "Forgive me for asking,
    but why is this a forever good-bye?".

    "I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be
    for my funeral," she said.

    "When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?".

    She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone". She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. "When we said , 'I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them".  Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

    I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude
    bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
   
    I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

    I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

    I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

    I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

    I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

    I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.
   
    She then began to cry and walked away.

    They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them but then an entire life to forget them.

Bone Density scan

              
     I had some pretty good results from my scan.  No further bone loss, Yah.  So I was hoping it would get better, but this is great. You want everything to be in the green area's and your numbers to be a plus.  My back is in the yellow area but not the red, Yippy and my hips are in the low part of the green area.  The right hip has improved by .01 which is still up not down.   I have managed to stop the loss in its track by my exercising.  Makes me determined to start back at the gym and start doing the weight lifting again.  The bone density scan only takes minutes, is painless and you only have to do it every 2 years.  Have I convinced you all to get yours done?

     Ricks bruising is more this morning so they are going to check his blood counts today.  They increased his coumadin so hopefully he will be at the therapeutic level soon.

      Back to work tonight.  I have been off since Tuesday.  It will be hard to get back in the swing but thankfully these days off have allowed my back to calm down for awhile.  A friend of mine is working tonight that has been off because her grandson is very ill.  It will be wonderful to see her.  I love working with her.

     We spend yesterday at my MIL's.  She looks tired these days and pale.  I think she has given it the great fight and am impressed.  Right now I am waiting for the hospice nurse to call then I am going to walk the dog.  She is also going to get a bath today.

    Jeanne was the first to ask for the card so I have it all picked out and will mail it today.  Sign your name and city, state, date and I would love it if each person who gets it drops me a line.  I can't wait to see where it all travels to.  First stop New Jersey.

 

         The picture above and below is where I am going to walk the dog today.  What fun.


   

Poor Rick

                         
Even in the case of individuals, there is no possibility to feel happiness through anger. If in a difficult situation one becomes disturbed internally, overwhelmed by mental discomfort, then external things will not help at all. However, if despite external difficulties or problems, internally one's attitude is of love, warmth, and kindheartedness, then problems can be faced and accepted.

-His Holiness the Dalai Lama
  

       Rick had a fair of bruising at both his puncture sites.  I checked today and there is fresh bruising.  Which of course there shouldn't be 5 days after his surgery.  So I am calling the doctor and trying to get him to just stop wandering around and doing so much.  The bruise is now half way down his leg.  I am marking it but I definitely want the doctor to check a CBC in the morning.   Figures he would have complications.  I will never get him to the doctors after this, LOL.

     Right now he is searching all over looking for his keys.  Rick is always losing something.  Is it all men?  Is it because they don't carry a purse.  I don't know how many hours of our life have been spent looking for lost keys, sunglasses, radio's, wallets, etc.....  Put them in the same place every day so you always know where they are I tell him.  I do, he snaps.  Yup, that is why we are tearing the house apart looking for these keys.  Half the time I will finally start looking and find them right out in the open.  He is so sure they are buried he doesn't look in the most obvious place.  And while he is frantically searching for his keys he is bleeding more and more into his leg.  Darn man.

    Now for lighter news.  Be careful whatyou buy at auctions.
Now wouldn't that just shock the heck out of you.  Obviously I would never use that smoker, LOL.  Now before you think it is really weird one of the Indian tribes around here always retrieves any limb that may have to be amputated.  They put it in cold storage until that person dies and the part is buried with the person.  So it is not unheard of.  Usually however the storage area isn't a smoker.

Vet report and Birthday present.

   I am so happy today because the vet report was good.  The lump on her right elbow was a pre-cancerous squamous cell tumor.   The edges were clean.   Meaning they got it all.   The other 2 area's were just some weird cyst.   My knees went limp....I swear I almost passed out I was holding my breath so hard.    So it was good news.  Hopefully.  The cancer was caught in time.     On the way out of the vets Zoey went up to some strange dog that was bigger then her and gave her a lick on the face.  The dog sat up looking surprised and the owner laughed.    I said doggy kisses, aren't they cute.   She was so happy and so was I.   I took her for a long walk along the river.  Both of us so happy we couldn't speak.   I love my dog.

     Rick has been having some complications from his surgery.  Excessive bleeding in his groin.  He has bruising down to his knees and is in pain.   Poor man.  Plus his lab showed he wasn't thin enough on his blood.  He got the last 2 shots and the doctor increased his coumadin to 7 mg.  Thursday he gets his lab again.

       MIL looks so sick and ready to go to bed and not get up again.   So sad and sick.  This is sad times but we can do this.  She is ready.  Now to get her son's ready.



      I love this grove of trees.  So calm and peaceful and a great picture to meditate too.  If I was young and wild I would run naked though this grove looking for my unicorn to ride.  With long blond wild hair.

    Today I got a wonderful present for my birthday.   I get money for my gifts as everyone knows I like to get something I like.    This year I ordered a picture from Greg. 
    
        I have a picture in my livingroom I just love.  It is a beach picture that is so restful.


  Greg has a picture that is so restful and just perfect to compliment this picture I have I have wanted it for a long time.   My birthday seemed like the perfect time to order the photo I wanted.  I received it today.  It is wonderful.   The photo's do not do it justice.
         

 The frame is perfect, the photo is perfect and Greg did a wonderful job.   Thank you Greg.  I love it.


     Now for another thing.  I want to send a card around the J-land community.   I would like to send it to someone who asks to have it.  They would sign it and send it to someone else who wants it...... and so and so on and so on.   After 6 months who ever has it should send it back to me.   I would love to see where it has traveled too in the world.   If after 6 months  more people want it I would send it on for another 6 months.   What do you think?   Would you send it on if you got it?   Let me know.

          Well.  The time is late and I need to rest and have another pear.  Have I mentioned that they were wonderful.  Take care world.   I love you.

No news

       

        Well, the vets office wouldn't tell me anything until tomorrow when she gets her sutures out.  Hummmm.   Is that bad news?  Am I making to much out of it?  Sigh.  Guess I will just have to wait and find out tomorrow like I was going to in the first place.  

          In the morning Rick has to get his blood work and then we will spend the rest of the morning at my MIL's.   She is looking pretty bad.   BIL is back to going to the store by way of the local bar everyday so I made her lunch and cleaned a little.   I am trying to get Rick nailed down to moving in.  He is starting to really make me mad.   Than after that we are going to the vets around 2:30.

       I am feeling really fat and fluffy lately.  No riding, no exercising and bad food choices.   I need to stop eating due to stress and boredom.  After I have my pear for dessert tonight because they are just perfect right now.

     Wed. I get my bone density test.   Now have you ladies who are menopausal had your's  done?   It is so important to get a baseline and then have it done every 2 years.  My first one was perfect.  Then I had my surgery and they removed my ovaries.  Instant menopause.   2 years later my scan was so bad they told me not to fall as I could break my back and both hips show loss.  That is when Istarted lifting weights.  I recommend  Strong women stay Young.  Great book.  So I am anxious to see if I have slowed down or stopped my bone loss.  I don't want to go on medication.  I must admit to being really terrible about taking my calcium pills though.  I am terrible at taking pills.

     Anyway I am still under the weather.  I wish I could get over this crud.  I have just enough of a temp to make me ache all over.
Take care all and peace to you all over the world.

                

Monday Monday

                        

            It's Monday and for many of you its time to go back to work.  Sorry bout that.  Although I don't have to go to work I am working today.  I have 3 packages to mail.   Sales have been good this month, yippy.  They were nonexistent last month while people were busy getting their kids off to school.  Yesterday I spent some time listing some new old items and cleaning house.  I was so behind.

    Then I have decided to call the vet after all today.  Tomorrow she gets her sutures out, but what if they give me terrible news and there I am crying and not able to concentrate on my driving.  This way I hear today and then have a day to compose myself.  I also have to make an appointment for Rick to get his blood check to see if he is therapeutic with his coumadin. 

    Twice today I  have to give him his shot and 3 times I have to give Zoey her meds.  I do still feel like I am at work.  The shots are getting harder and harder for Rick to take.   They don't hurt when I give them but they hurt for awhile afterward.  So he is starting to dread them.  2 more days.  And he ended up with some real good bruises on his groin where the needles went in.  He is a very pretty color, LOL.  

    Yesterday it was hot here.  I had to use the AC in the bedroom last night.

   For the first day of Fall thats pretty good.  Wish we could go for a ride.  I might load the bike and go myself except today it is suppose to rain.  And of course I want to go to my MIL's today.  I have some dinner for her.  We are going to talk about moving in today also. 

    So that is my day.  I have pork cutlets for supper tonight.  Going to do a German meal my Mom liked and cook it in the  slow pot with sauerkraut.    It gets the best flavor.  As a child I would never eat the sauerkraut but I like it now.  And I bought some yummy pears and grapes.  They must be in season.

     So take all and thanks again for the well wishes.  I will let you all know what the vet says.