I am going on a date. He's tall, 6'3 and I think handsome in a rough and furry way. I have my face done up, and I only wear makeup for very special occasions. My favorite scent, rain zen, yummy. Now I just need him.
Yup, Rick and I are going out on a Monday date night to celebrate his birthday. Also we are combining our anniversary which is on the 3rd because we don't know if we will be able to get away twice in a week. 34 years! Wow.
Rick can barely walk his back is so bad but I think a nice bottle of red Zinfandel will sooth those sore muscles. I am trying very hard to lose some unwelcome pounds so I plan on a small steak, broccoli and a salad. Yummy. And wine.
On the first is my MIL's birthday. She is going to be 86. I really didn't think we would be celebrating it this year. She amazes me. She doesn't want anything but also loved flowers so I am getting her some very pretty ones to enjoy. I told her I would cook anything she wanted to eat. She can't come up with anything though.
Work was good last night. I talked to my boss to see how closely I was treaded to a warning for missing work. I have worked with her for years and she is being very good about not giving me a bad time. She understands how hard it is to predict something like this. She understands that if I have to lose me job to do this....so be it and I don't think she wants it to come to that. Me either actually.
Actually. That was my grandsons favorite work. I actually would like some milk gramma, Actually I would like chocolate in it also. Actually maybe strawberry would be better. I miss him so much already. I miss my son. I was upset his last day he spent with his wifes relatives that get to see him alot more often then us so we parted with me being cranky which I can get when I am tired. Next time the other relatives can fly him out. Right! Specially when money is so tight right now.
Well, I have to take the dog out before my date comes. I feel like a teenager again, LOL.
I was afraid he would be shy and just start warming up the last day, but he ran into my arms at the airport and we have had a grand time. He gives everyone hugs and kisses and is just a doll. Although my son was shocked to see his Gramma, my grandson thought nothing of it and gave her a big hug and kiss. In fact today when we went over he gave my MIL a big hug and they both went backwards. We all watched in horror as it seemed like in slow motion down they went. And there wasn't a thing we could do about it. My poor grandson started to cry and hid behind the couch, sure he had killed his gramma. She was fine and we finally convinced him it was OK. Now I can giggle about it but what a shock. The hospice nurse was there and we checked her over. My MIL said of course she didn't get hurt as she hit her hard dane head and it broke the fall.
The visit has been great. My MIL has been laughing and hospice says they see a twinkle in her eye. It kind of sad we can't go someplace special with him,but one of has to be with my MIL and my son understands. Tomorrow I have to go back to work and they are staying at my MIL's and then leaving at 4 am. I am going to miss them so much. My grandson has gotten so big. Twice the size he was and what a talker. His favorite word is actually. so cute. My son has lost 40 pounds and is so handsome. I will miss them also but he gave me a web cam so we can talk to each other that way. Should be fun if I can figure it out.
Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll see them tomorrow...its only a day awayyyyyyyyy
Can we say excited here. I can. By this time tomorrow we will be pulling into the airport. I am going shopping today to get him something to greet him with. Maybe balloons, a car game, a toy. Not sure but am sure a big hug. Poor kid probably doesn't remember me at all and I plan on swooping him up and smothering him with hugs and kisses. Oh well, he will grow to love me all over again I know. Tomorrow...
And I am giving thanks, Zoey is better again and Wednesday I will be hugging my son and grandson. It is getting so close I can barely stand it. I have missed them so much. I wish my granddaughter could have come also. Hopefully I will get to see them this summer.
Tonight the LPN we hired might be able to sit with my MIL so hubby and I can go out to eat. We have missed our monday night date nights. She seems really nice and my MIL likes her so that is a good thing. My MIL did complain slightly about the cost but I reminded her that she was the one who refused to go to the hospital for respite care so this was the next best thing.
I am not sure why she doesn't want to go for respite. In case you don't know respite care is something provide by hospice if caregivers need to be gone for the day or a few days. She can do 5 days every 6 months at either the hospital or a local nursing home. At our hospital we have some lovely rooms. They don't do lab or treatments, just pass your meds and give you your meals and spoil you. You can watch TV all day or whatever you feel up to. Its not that bad. But to her its not home. It's weird that she refuses it now as she always kind of liked being in the hospital before. Go figure.
She has had a couple of good days. I am going to wash her hair today and put some conditioner on it. It gets so dry and her scalp itches so hopefully that will help. Yesterday I made a lemon cake for her. She always liked the lemon cakes and she still does. Then I am going to come back here and get some housework done. I want to get the sheets washed and the kitchen floor again but the bathroom needs a good going over.
I also have to pack some items that will sell so far on my ebay auction. People are bidding earlier since I started it in the middle of the night, LOL. And I bought a piece of Weller pottery I have wanted for awhile. Ticked me off though the seller is charging way more then shipping then it is actually going to be. Since I do so much shipping I can tell what it should cost. I complained about it and will see what the actually cost is when it comes and then request a refund. I can understand the shipping costs have risen but not that much.
Well, the weather has been cold and rainy here for days and will continue all week. I need to get some yard work done also. The yard looks simply terrible as we have really neglected everything while we are taking care of my MIL. Thing about housework and yard work is it does wait for you, LOL.
The vet said it might happen and that her lab work, while so much better wasn't perfect yet. So today Rick and I changed places and he came home to doggy puke. Better him then me. So Zoey was really sorry but not feeling really perky today. She is back on medicine. I hate trying to give her the carafate as it disolves so quick and she does her best to spit it out making her choke. She likes the antibiotic so I use that as a treat when she takes the other pill. She is down 7 pounds and starting to feel bony. I don't like that at all. Otherwise she is still not near as bad as she was. Hope she feels better tomorrow.
My MIL is slightly forgetful and very tired today. She slept most of the day. When she didn't have her oxygen on she looked pretty dusky. So all in all, not the best of days. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
The tag below is one Donna made, purple for pancreatic cancer like my MIL and her sister has.
Develop a meditation that is like water. Doing this, you will find that
the thoughts and impressions that possess you will flow away. Just as
people wash away their body liquids, their sweat and spittle, pus and
blood, and yet the water is not troubled or disgusted--so this water
meditation will bring you peace.
Ghoul morning all, LOL. Isn't the graphic wonderful. Not much going on today. The LPN is coming around 11 for us to talk to and see how she is with my MIL. I am staying at her house today and Rick is coming here so he can get the window airs out and do some heavy stuff I can't do anymore easily. I also am finishing on the drawers at my MIL's.
She has not been doing as well since 2 nights ago. All of a sudden she is getting up often at night to go the bathroom, but is unable to walk that far. Rick has been using the wheelchair. She usually never gets up more then once at night and was able to walk. I don't know if she has a bladder infection or what is going on. Plus during the day she is able to walk with her walker. I am also worried about her being on lasix everyday without checking her potassium. She is having more chest pain and rapid heart rate plus is confused off and on. Is her calcium low, her potassium? Being hospice the only blood they usually check is her dig level. I am going to ask her hospice nurse to see if we can check the blood monday and if we can't then if we can stop the lasix. I realize she is a hospice patient, but if it is causing her discomfort I don't want that.
We are unfortunately expecting the BIL one of these days. It has been so nice and peaceful without him. We finally got the bedroom he used to not stink like cigarettes so bad. Maybe he won't come back, but I doubt it. We do have all of my MIL's check and savings books. When she is completely alert she doesn't want him to have any more money. When she is forgetful she doesn't remember he took the money or drugs. She is getting more and more vague these days.
I have offered to stay with MIL at night and have Rick come here so he can catch up on his sleep. He is happy so far taking care of her. I suggested keeping the commode next to her bed at night but he would rather wheel her in the restroom. When I do stay there that is what I am going to do. Use the commode at night. Much easier.
4 more days and my Grandson and son come. I am so excited. The LPN is going to sit with my MIL so we can both go to Omaha to get them. I can't wait to wrap that child in my arms, he will probably wish he was elsewhere, LOL.
