One more day.

  Can you tell I am doing the countdown, LOL.      I was charge for 8 hours last and actually got out on time.  One more night to work.



         Work was not bad last night.  I see improvement in my patients,  loved the people I worked with and my back had cut it down a notch.  So nice.  I was able to doing some therapeutic laughing and one girl gave a great back massage when the pain got hard to handle.  I work with some wonderful people.

          We made supper at MIL's.   It was too spicy she thought, too bland we thought so we were not exactly satisfied with dinner.  It is hard to cook for someone who usually only cooked with salt and pepper.  We like to use different spices and herbs when we cook.  How much macaroni and cheese can you eat in a lifetime. 

    At times she seems less confused.  We had a pleasant meal and she seemed with it,.  even smiled,  Not happy about the LPN I hired.  I can stay by myself she says.  No Mom, you can't anymore.  You will be sleeping the entire time she is here anyway.  Do it for my our peace of mind.   BIL left me alone for hours without problems.  Well mom, that a problem of a different nature and I don't intent to neglect you that way thank you very much..  She is starting to have some GI bleeding.   And states she just doesn't want to get out of bed much anymore.  I told her to lay in bed as much as she wanted.

     I felt so quilty going to work the day she was confused.  I am used to a confused patient.  I know who to redirect them and get them to calm down.  I am used to dying people.  I know the signs that it is getting near.   Rick is scared to death.  He has only seen his dad die.  It wasn't alone with his dad when he died.  All the family was there.  I feel bad I am not there all the time to reassure him he will be OK and help him through this.  Things are looking close enough I am thinking this might be the last night I work unless the LPN works out good enough.   Mentally my MIL is getting ready to let get.  I can hear it in the things she says.  She tired, she has had enough, she wants to just stay in bed.  She wishes she would just not wake up.  This is fairly new also.   I think she will get her wishes soon.  We have a hospice meeting in the morning.

    Thanks to everyone for your prayers and kind emails.  It helps.

     Now some good news.  Zoey is like she has been snatched from the jaws of death and is determined to live each day like it is her last.  This has taken like 3 years off her.  She is playing with toys she hasn't touched in ages and wanted to rough house like a puppy.   It is wonderful and the vet was so pleased when he called.
 
    So that is all folks.  Take care.