Thoughts

     I am still in shock about the terrible shooting in Virginia.   How could something so terrible happen.  All the signs were there.  I think part of it the political correctness of everyone.  He has the right to be different, who am I to interfer.... Will I be call a racist.  So may factors.  Fear, knowing this man was over the edge and it sounds like students knew it.  Teachers knew it.  This was a true hate crime.

    I think our lottery dollars, suppose to spent (for the children) , ( for education) should be spend to make sure our students can lock down their schools.  Sad that it has to happen.  Lock my child in school so some nut case can't harm them.  What is the world coming too?  

    I also think they should never give the nut cases name.  They should refer to him as idiot or Mr. Crazy.  Don't let someone want to beat his number and get their 15 minutes of fame.  In their headset if they knew no one would mutter their name would it make a difference?    Maybe.  And stop not telling.  Stop shielding these people.  They all have a pattern.  Lock them up and give them treatment.  We don't lock up the disturbed anymore.  Give them drugs and send them on their merry way.  Trust the insane to take the drugs. Pay the price when they don't.

   You don't have to agree with me. I never did say I was politically correct.  Some of you may have relatives with mental illness.  This type of mental illness goes beyond that.  I have worked with some of these people.  I truly believe the safest thing for all of us is to lock them up for good.  Some of these people, not all.  But the system didn't break it down like that.  Not until they commit a horrible crime.  We need to change that.

   Anyway.  My hearts goes out to the family and community.  I am saddened beyond words.

Get out the tissues

          
 When an old lady died in  the geriatric ward of a small hospital
near Dundee, Scotland, it was felt  that she had nothing left of any
value.
 Later, when the nurses were going  through her meager
possessions, they found this poem. Its quality and  content so impressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to  every nurse in the hospital.
 One nurse took  her copy to Ireland. The old  lady's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in the Christmas edition  of the News Magazine of the North Ireland Association for Mental Health.
 A  slide presentation has also been made based on her simple,
 but eloquent,  poem. ...And this little old Scottish lady, with nothing left to give to the world, is now the author of this "anonymous" poem winging across the Internet.
 Goes to show that we all leave "Some footprints in time".....

                               An  Old Lady's poem
 What do you see, nurses, what do you see
   What are you  thinking when you're looking at me?
 A crabby old woman, not very wise,
 Who dribbles her food and makes  no reply
 When you say in a loud voice, "I do wish you'd try!"
 Who seems  not to notice the things that you do,
       And forever is losing a stocking or  shoe.....
     Who, resisting or not, lets you do as you will,
     With bathing  and feeding, the long day to fill....
 Is that what you're thinking? Is that what you see?
 Then open your eyes, nurse; you're not looking at me.
    I'll tell you who I am as I sit here so still,
       As I do at your bidding, as I eat  at your will.
   I'm a small child of ten ...with a father and mother,
       Brothers and sisters, who love one another.
    A young girl of sixteen,  with wings on her feet,
       Dreaming that soon now a lover she'll meet.

      A bride soon at twenty-my heart gives a leap,
   Remembering the vows that I  promised to keep.
     At twenty-five now, I have young of my own,
   Who need  me to guide and a secure happy home.
   A woman of thirty, my young now grown  fast,
    Bound to each other with ties that should last.
 At forty, my young  sons have grown and are gone,
     But my man's beside me to see I don't mourn.
        At fifty once more, babies play round my knee,
   Again we know children,  my loved one and me.
      Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead;
       I look  at the future, I shudder with dread.
    For my young are all rearing young of  their own,
 And I think of the years and the love that I've known.
      I'm  now an old woman ...and nature is cruel;
       'Tis jest to make old age look like  a fool.
    The body, it crumbles, grace and vigor depart,
     There is now a  stone where I once had a heart.
 But inside this old carcass a young girl still dwells,
     And now and again my battered heart swells.
      I remember the joys, I remember the pain,
        And I'm loving and living life over again.
  I think of the years ....all too few, gone too fast,
 And accept the stark fact  that nothing can last.
         So open your eyes, nurses, open and see,
 ...Not a  crabby old woman; look closer ...see ME!!
.....Remember this poem when  you next meet an old person who
 you might brush aside without looking at the  young soul within.
 ..... We will one day be there, too!

 

 SHARE THIS  POEM.........
 ITS SOMETHING WE ALL NEED TO REMEMBER

It's Tuesday

                                         

           Tuesday already.  I have 2 more nights of work and then am off for my stretch.  And I am grateful for that.  We were very busy during the weekend.  I ran and ran, not enough to run some pounds off though.  So 2 more nights and then off.

     Yesterday I had my teeth cleaned and got the great news another tooth is cracked.  Better start saving up for that crown.  Also went and saw my MIL.  Another niece showed up and will stay until tomorrow morning.  I am glad someone is there.

    My husband had taken her grocery shopping early and that wore her out.  When I was there she was just looking exhausted.  She looks out of it mentally.  I feel so bad.  It is terrible to given the diagnoses of cancer and have any hope taken away at the same time.  She seems pretty matter of fact about it, but I am sure mentally she is suffering.  How could she not be.    She says she has had a good life and is looking forward to seeing my FIL again along with her sisters and brother and that is the thing I would be happy about also.  Seeing my mother and family and friends that have died so we can have us a nice visit.  Of course she is worried about having pain and told me she doesn't think she is going to last no 6 months either.  I have to agree.  I have gone from thinking about 6 months to a few weeks at this point.  A few short weeks.

    This has all happened so quickly.  Some things you want to go quickly.  Hurry up and get warmer, hurry up and get to the weekend, but sometimes you want time to slow down and just stop for awhile.

    Good things.  She is so matter of fact about it we can discuss it openly.   We are getting everything prepared now.  The funeral home is coming out at the end of the week as she wants to tell them exactly what she wants, LOL.  Stubborn woman.  We are also going to see her lawyer to make sure everything is in order.  And we are trying to get my BIL to come back.  

   He is in big time denial and thinks the longer he stays away the longer she will make it.  The social worker called him yesterday but I don't know if they got hold of him.  Lets get him here and get it over with.

    I have got to get ahold of myself also.  Using this as an excuse to eat and let my diet go out the window.  As my husband gets thinner and thinner from stress, I get bigger and bigger.  I am a stress eater.  Top it off with no exercise and the results are very depressing. 

    So I slapped myself mentally in the face this morning and told myself to snap out of it.  A binge eater will use any excuse, lol.   Back to the slim fast twice a day with a small supper.  Back to salads.  Back to getting on track.  Hopefully back on my bike as the weather is finally getting warmer.  I took a mile walk yesterday, not much I know,  but I hurt my back at work the other day and it is pretty sore so I was forcing myself.  I meditated this morning and focused on getting on track.  Got my water jug out so I can drink, drink, drink.  I will do this.

   Today I have yet another class.  Pacemakers now and then they are all done until next year.  I have to deliver a dog food sample at work and then go to my MIL's.  Work at 7.  Keep repeated 2 more nights, 2 more nights.

   Onthe eagle cam.  Did you see they are going to band the babies today?  I think its at 3 Eastern time.  I probably won't be here to see it but check it out if you are.  I saw both parents yesterday feeding the babies.  What a beautiful bird.

                 

Pass is on.

      

Jeanie sent this too me and has it in her journal.  Pass it on and put it in yours if you agree with what this song says.   Thanks Jeanie, it's beautiful.

   Saw on the eagle site they will be banding the babies tomorrow.  Check it out.  I saw both parents feeding them earlier.

Eagle Cam

    When you first go on the site it is totally black, but sit a second and the pictures show. 

This morning it was a rather graphic feeding time

 but still so interesting.  Yesterday it was raining and the tree and nest was swaying all over.  What a ride.

  Work was a bear all weekend.  We were so busy and I ran most of the shift.  The hospital is full all over.

    My MIL is alone again until tonight when another of her

nieces is coming.  Things are not going well. 

She is barely eating at all.  I am going to sleep a few hours

and then make some soups so she has some handy meals. 

Soups seem to go down OK.   I also want to bring some puddings.  I think at this rate we will have to be moving in

much sooner then I had thought and I told my husband yesterday I did not think his mother was going to make it

6 months if she was failing this fast.  I am starting to wonder

 if she will even make 6 weeks.  This is happening way too fast. 

    I can't get FMLA because she isn't a blood relative. 

If I miss too many days they will terminate me.  I hate to risk my job, but I can always get a job.  Nurses can always get a job.

   Well, I have to get some shut eye.  It will be a short sleep

day today and I will probably be asleep by 8 tonight. 

 Take care all.

P.S.  Anyone know why my entries are so stretched out.  What a

pain that is.  How can I fix it?

Check out the Eagle Cam

   It's getting dark there but the mother is there

with the 3 babies, so cute.

 

http://www.wvec.com/cams/eagle.html

This is how they voted

               

Subject: This is how they voted
THEY NO LONGER SEEM TO KNOW WHO THEY ARE TO BE REPRESENTING, DO THEY!
Shocking Senatorial Votes
"Never argue with an idiot; they'll drag you down to their level and
beat you with experience." ~ anonymous
The following senators voted against making English the official
language of America :
Akaka (D-HI)
Bayh (D-IN)
Biden (D-DE)
Bingaman (D-NM)
Boxer (D-CA)
Cantwell (D-WA)
Clinton (D-NY)
Dayton (D-MN)
Dodd (D-CT)
Domenici (R-NM)
Durbin (D-IL)
Feingold (D-WI)
Feinstein (D-CA)
Harkin (D-IA)
Inouye (D-HI)
Jeff ords (I-VT)
Kennedy (D-MA)
Kerry (D-MA)
Kohl (D-WI)
Lautenberg (D-NJ)
Leahy (D-VT)
Levin (D-MI)
Lieberman (D-CT)
Menendez (D-NJ)
Mikulski (D-MD)
Murray (D-WA)
Obama (D-IL)
Reed (D-RI)
Reid (D-NV)
Salazar (D-CO)
Sarbanes (D-MD)
Schumer (D-NY)
Stabenow (D-MI)
Wyden (D-OR)

Now, the following are the senators who voted to give illegal aliens Social Security benefits.

They are grouped by home state. If a state
is not listed, there was no voting representative.

Alaska : Steve ns (R)
Arizona : McCain (R)
Arkansas : Lincoln (D) Pryor (D)
California : Boxer (D) Feinstein (D)
Colorado : Salazar (D)
Connecticut : Dodd (D) Lieberman (D)
Delaware : Biden (D) Carper (D)
Florida : Martinez (R)
Hawaii : Akaka (D) Inouye (D)
Illinois : Durbin (D) Obama (D)
Indiana : Bayh (D) Lugar (R)
Iowa : Harkin (D)
Kansas : Brownback (R)
Louis iana : Landrieu (D)
Maryland : Mikulski (D) Sarbanes (D)
Massachusett: Kennedy (D) Kerry (D)
Montana : Baucus (D)
Nebraska :&&n bsp; Hagel (R)
Nevada : Reid (D)
New Jersey : Lautenberg (D) Menendez (D)
New Mexico : Bingaman (D)
New York : Clinton (D) Schumer (D)
North Dakota : Dorgan (D)
Ohio : DeWine (R) Voinovich(R)
Oregon : Wyden (D)
Pennsylvania : Specter (R)
Rhode Island : Chafee (R) Reed (D)
South Carolina : Graham (R)
South Dakota : Johnson (D)
Vermont : Jeff ords (I) Leahy (D)
Washington : Cantwell (D) Murray (D)
West Virginia : Rockefeller (D), by Not Voting
Wisconsin : Feingold (D) Kohl (D)

 

   So once again I'll write a letter voicing my disappoval to our Senator

 and will get back my form letter.  The people who were voted

 in turning their backs on the people who voted for them,

 well except I didn't vote for any of them,

 but you know what I mean.